Seconds of Sorrow in Spring

3 days ago I entered into a relegation zone. All I could think about is the past and how much I want it back. It’s not that I don’t like the present... These annoying little bits and bots kept me awake at midnight. Is it possible to get it back? Not just a part of it but the whole. The light hearted summer, the culture shock of London, the hug of Holland, the tiredness of France, those lovely palm trees of Valencia and that freezing welcome of Cluj-Napoca.
Is it possible to force one’s past into a box and open it whenever he wants? And will it have the same effect everytime? Is it a sign of something?

Nevertheless I keep myself to this few lines I read:

„If you are out of breath and your enthusiasm slipped away, continue it. Not for yourself nor for life itself. Do it just for fun. And help will come”

*note: help did come on the next day

A sleepy morning

There's a nice, small, busy university buffet not far from the place where I work. It's really nothing. Some stressed out furniture from the Soviet times and a few wooden desks without chairs. The lady behind the bar is the kind of middle aged women, I guess, with two children and a husband. As I said it's a pleasent place.
And their capuchino tastes crap. I think it's partly because the antique coffe machine and partly because I got coffe instead this morning but in the same size as a capuchino. I drank it however my face was bitter than a big box of lemon.
2 minutes later I found myself worringly enthusiatic and was extremely interested basically about everything. I wanted to ask every people on the street;
Where are you from, what are you doing, do you enjoy it, do you like this day, how old are you, do you do sports regularly, where did you buy that, oh I like that place too, what do you think about recent stimulus packs given to economies in order to restart European blood circulation? Who, what, why, how, when and where?

A day starts with a coffe!
Coffe, I llllove you.
Addicted? Definetely.
Care about it?
No.


Photo: Coffe by Liquid Essence